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[tatman]

. i lost my wife saterday morning. she had a anurisam burst in the lower brain stem they kept her on life support for 3 days with no responce they said she was brain bead. i was with her when she slipped away and the visions are true she woke me and the kids up when she was slipping away. i seen her reach out with her hand wanting to hold my hand 1 last time

[blueyes]

Oh Jon, I`m so sorry to hear this. Please know, I`m here to talk to if you ever need me.

[tatman]

thanks, im going to mortuary in morning to have her fixed up so the kids can tell her they love her and we will see her again some day soon. i am so lost without her beside me. it hurts so dang bad i cant stand it

[blueyes]

I can only imagine what you are going through right now, it must be so hard. You told me she was sick, but I had no idea she was that ill.
When you said you had a vision of her the night she passed, I was reminded of Bills Father. He saw a vision of him the night he left this world.

((hugs)) wish I could give you a real hug right now. I am glad you and the kids have each other, it is comforting to be with loved ones at this time.

[tatman]

if it wasnt for the kids i dont know what to do, they keep fussing over me making me eat and just even watching tv is a big help but when it gets quiet and im alone it hits me hard. i am going to try to go back to work tuesday night. i have got to snap out of it and get back at it. the visions are real. i can feel linda at times. its like a really cold chill hits you 

[blueyes]

Work would probably help... Keeping busy is a positive thing.

[tatman]

yeah, i dont want to rush into it but i have to go back someday. just going to be hard. went tp lowes to get a washer the other day and found myself looking for linda 

[blueyes]

I imagine that is going to happen to you for a while.

[Nazarene4Life]

*hugs* I'm sorry to hear that  If you need someone to talk to, I'm here too.

[tatman]

*hugs* I'm sorry to hear that  If you need someone to talk to, I'm here too.

thanks.

[blueyes]

How are you feeling Jon? I was over to your site today... Plenty sure does have a gift, and a way with words. I couldnt think of anything to add. Very touching words of wisdom.
Hope you are feeling some better. ((Hugs))

[tatman]

its getting a little easier but still hurts. was up all night with family dont think i will make it in monday. some how it dont if i work or not, family comes first. we are trying to support each other. i drove up to the cemetery and spent time alone. the grounds keepers kept watching me becouse i nelt down by her side and talked to her for a while. the drive did me good i even did some shopping.  plenty has a gift fo sure  her words carry strong medicine    thanks for asking     

[tatman]

   its a shame people have to use booze to morn. my brother in law and nephew both drank all weekend and soon as they ran out the fights started. i put up with the drinking long enough, i blew my top and let em all know how disrespectful they were acting  so i called  they came out and a fight broke out again. beer cans and bottles were everywhere  so now they both are sleeping it off in jail. im cleaning up the mess and alone 

[blueyes]

Sounds like a mess... I`m sure that was hard to put up with.
Drinking only makes the pain go away for a short time... still tere when the buzz wears off. In their case sounds like they will feel even worse after the buzz wears off. 

[tatman]

Sounds like a mess... I`m sure that was hard to put up with.
Drinking only makes the pain go away for a short time... still tere when the buzz wears off. In their case sounds like they will feel even worse after the buzz wears off. 

  yup